I really don’t know what is going on with my mental health. What I do know is I’ve got a good heart and I want to do my best. Only possible if I stay away from drink and drugs.
When I do that I can focus and get things done. My problem isn’t that I can’t do it. It’s that I get scared and overthink things way to much.
Scared of situations but more scared of myself and what happens when I crack under pressure. I end up destroying everything positive around me and end up in prison. I am not a prison kind of guy so even more of a train wreck having been there twice.
Anxiety YES – Catastrophising YES – Self destruction YES – Traumatic memories of my mum being slashed and battered YES.
Got an A++ In The School of Life. Stubborn enough not to give up on finding peace and stability in a self made circus of a journey called life
DETERMINED will and genuine heart felt belief that balance and peace of mind can be achieved, with effort and sometimes a bit of blind faith
Hard working and optimistic with a positive outlook and a deep desire to help others
Chaotic childhood – Bullies – – Domestic violence – Drink – Drugs – Gambling Attempted suicide – Rehab and Prison have all given me an insight and character that is resilient and understanding to many of the consequences of addiction
This I hope will help me to help others avoid as much of that as possible and stay on track. Or take the first steps towards sobriety
Was 7 years clean and sober before relapse
1y 5m 18d sober (at the time of writing this bit) 15/07/22
Ran successful PT business
Qualified nutritionist & Chef
Health & life coach
Laser focused. When I am my true self
Currently expanding my skills and services to relaunch with a whole new drive and purpose around recovery and mental wellbeing
I have a burning desire to be the version of me that I am proud of. I can feel it in my chest
I will not be beaten by addiction. Myself, my family and anyone I can help deserves so much more than that
Exercising (when I’m in zone)
and table tennis